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Pressed · Part 1 of 6

Khaki Among the Begonias

A retired Navy commander irons his own uniform for a garden center. Corporate just shipped lime-green polos.

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The first thing customers noticed about Hank Varga was the crease.

It ran down the front of each trouser leg like a property line. It held all day, through mulch delivery and the July heat and the day a toddler hugged his knees with two fistfuls of potting soil. I once watched a woman in the perennial aisle study his trousers. Then she studied her husband, as if she had been sold the wrong model.

My name is Sadie Yarrow. I was thirty-four and the store manager of Underwood Garden & Feed in Orchard Ridge. I had started there at seventeen, watering flats for six dollars an hour. I had seen a lot of employees come and go, but never one like Hank.


He walked in three years ago in March, answering a sign in the window that said SEASONAL HELP — ASK FOR SADIE. He was fifty-two then. He had steel-rimmed glasses, a gray crew cut, and posture that made the door frame look slouchy.

He also had a résumé in a clear plastic sleeve. Nobody had ever handed me a résumé in a sleeve. Most people handed me a phone number on the back of a seed packet.

"Commander Hank Varga, United States Navy, retired," he said. "Supply Corps. Twenty-eight years. I'd like to apply for the seasonal position."

I looked at the résumé. He had run the supply department on an aircraft carrier. He had been responsible for feeding five thousand sailors three times a day. He had managed an inventory worth more than our whole town.

"This is a garden center," I said. "The job is mostly lifting bags of manure."

"Aye, ma'am. I've lifted worse."

"It pays fourteen an hour."

"I'm not here for the money, ma'am." He paused. "Though I'll accept it."

Bea Underwood was still the owner back then. She was seventy-one and had founded the store with her late husband in 1979. She carried pruning shears in her purse and deadheaded any plant within reach, including plants in other people's stores. She walked over, snipped a brown bloom off a geranium by the register, and looked Hank up and down.

"Why a garden center?" she asked.

"I spent twenty-eight years making sure things arrived where they were needed," Hank said. "I'd like to spend the next part making sure things grow."

Bea put the shears back in her purse. "Can you start Monday?"

"I can start now."

"Monday's fine, sugar. Wear something you don't mind getting dirty."

He did not take that advice. Hank never got dirty. I still don't know how.


On his first Monday, Hank arrived at 0645 for a shift that started at seven. He wore a uniform. It was not a Navy uniform, and he was very clear about that.

He had designed it himself. Pressed khaki trousers, and a short-sleeved shirt in deep forest green with two buttoned pockets and creases you could level a shelf with.

Above the right pocket was a black name tape that said VARGA. Above the left was a round embroidered patch, about the size of a coaster.

The patch showed an acorn over two crossed garden trowels. Around the edge, in small gold letters, it said UNDERWOOD GARDEN & FEED.

"Did Bea give you that?" I asked.

"No, ma'am. I had it made by a shop in Dayton that does unit patches." He touched it once, the way some people touch a wedding ring.

"Fifty units minimum," he added. "I have forty-nine spares."

"Hank, you don't have to wear a uniform. Everybody here wears jeans and whatever T-shirt is clean."

"I know." He tightened his belt half a notch. "But I find I work better when I know what I'm wearing to work."

"Why not wear the Navy one? You earned it."

He looked at me for a moment. It was not a hard look. It was the look of a man deciding how much to say.

"That one's retired," he said. "So am I. I don't wear what I earned there to a place I haven't earned yet."

He nodded toward the shed. "Where do you want me?"

I sent him to the hose aisle. It was the worst aisle in the store. Thirty garden hoses, all of them tangled, as if they had been in a fight.

When I came back two hours later, every hose had been coiled flat on the floor in a perfect spiral. They looked like giant green cinnamon rolls. Customers were stepping around them as if they were art.

"What did you do?" I asked.

"Flemished them," Hank said. "It's how you coil a line on deck. Keeps it from kinking."

A man picked up a hose to buy it. The spiral came apart in his hands. Hank watched him carry it to the register like a surgeon watching someone drop a scalpel.

"I'll do another," he said quietly.


That was three years ago. By the spring of this story, Hank was not seasonal. Hank was the store.

Our inventory had not been wrong in thirty-four months. When the count said eleven bags of lime, there were eleven bags of lime.

Our regional seed rep accused us of lying on the reports. He came out to check, counted the seed rack himself, and left with the expression of a man who had lost a bet with God.

Hank said "Aye" to everything. Aye to me, aye to customers.

Aye to Mrs. Wainwright, sixty-eight, from the garden club, when she asked if the hydrangeas were happy. "Aye, ma'am. Very content."

He refused to let anybody call him Commander. "Here I'm Hank," he said. "Commander is a rank I left on the pier."

He did a walk through the yard every morning at 0700, which he called morning inspection. He inspected the begonias. He inspected the drip lines. He inspected Merle.

Merle Yablonski was sixty-three and ran the bulk yard with the forklift. He had worked at Underwood's for thirty-one years. He spoke mostly in weather forecasts, and he was never, ever wrong.

"Morning, Merle," Hank would say.

"Dry till Thursday," Merle would say. "Then it turns."

"Noted."

And on Thursday, it turned.

Hank also wrote things. In his first summer he handed me a laminated, three-page document titled HEAVY WEATHER BILL — UNDERWOOD GARDEN & FEED.

It assigned every employee a station in case of a severe storm. It had a diagram. The diagram had a legend.

He ran a drill every quarter. Everybody groaned. Kenzie Wolde, our twenty-two-year-old cashier, timed the drills on her phone and gave them letter grades, like a teacher with a grudge.

"C-minus," she told him after the first one. "Merle went to the wrong station."

"Merle went to lunch," Hank said.

"Still counts."

I filed the Heavy Weather Bill in the binder under the register. Then, honestly, I forgot about it. Hank did not forget about it. Hank did not forget anything.


In January, Bea sold the store.

She was seventy-four by then. Her knees were done and her son lived in Arizona. She sold Underwood's to Verdance Home & Garden, a chain with two hundred stores across nine states. She cried at the signing and then deadheaded a poinsettia in the lawyer's office.

"They promised to keep everybody," she told me afterward in the parking lot. "I made them put it in writing."

"Did you read it?"

"Hank did." She patted my arm. "He found two typos and a missing comma. The lawyer was furious."

For three months, nothing changed. Then, on a Tuesday in April, a truck delivered fourteen cardboard boxes. The boxes said VERDANCE across the side in a font that looked like it was smiling at you.

The first box contained a new sign: VERDANCE GROW CENTER #114. The second contained a banner that said GET YOUR GREEN ON! The third contained the polos.

They were lime green. Not leaf green, not grass green.

They were the kind of green you would get if a highlighter and a tennis ball had a very loud baby. Each one had VERDANCE on the chest in white, and on the back, in bigger white letters, GET YOUR GREEN ON!

There was a memo taped inside the lid. I read it out loud in the break room.

TEAM MEMBER UNIFORM POLICY — EFFECTIVE MONDAY

All team members will wear the official Verdance Lime polo during every shift. Polos are to be worn untucked for a relaxed, approachable brand presence. No exceptions. No modifications.

A Brand Activation Specialist will visit your store to support the transition!

Kenzie held a polo up against herself. "D," she said. "Maybe a D-minus."

Merle looked out the window at the sky. "Something's coming," he said. Nobody knew if he meant weather.

Hank had not said anything. He picked up a polo from the box and turned it around in his hands. He checked the seams the way he checked delivery manifests. Then he found the tag in the collar and read it.

ONE SIZE FITS MOST.

"Ma'am," he said. "What color is this?"

"The memo calls it Verdance Lime."

He held it a little farther away, as if distance might help. It didn't.

"I have never been most," he said.

He folded the polo into a perfect square. He set it on the table. He looked down at his own forest-green shirt and the acorn patch above the pocket. For a moment, he looked fifty-five years old, which I had never once seen him look.

"Hank," I said. "I'm sorry. I'll talk to them."

"Understood," he said.

Then he walked out to the yard to finish the afternoon watering.

I stood there with the memo in my hand. I had known Hank Varga for three years. I had heard him say "Aye" a thousand times. To customers, to Merle, to me, to a woman who asked if our hydrangeas had feelings.

I had never once heard him say "Understood."

I would find out on Monday exactly what it meant.

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